Mom's 53rd Birthday.

I woke up today thinking how my mom would spend this day.
Today's November 20, 2009 - her 53rd birthday.

Since early this morning, i've been asking myself, does she even know it's her day today? Are "they" even celebrating for her up there? There are lots of things going on in my mind right now. I feel sad because i'm no longer capable of calling her over the phone or even seeing her in person. I miss the feeling of calling her every morning of November 20. What's worst is that i even miss the feeling of saying the words "mom", "mommy" and "ooz"- her moniker. This year's November 20 would be the very first ordinary November 20 for me and my family. No celebrations, no birthday songs, NOTHING. It seems that November 20 has finally become "just another ordinary day". It's sad to think that way. But, what can we do? Things happen for a reason.

Now i'm typing this blog for her to read or listen to as i read the words out loud. It's like my way of sharing or showing my love for her to the rest of the world. I know she's by my side all the time, so, it's really impossible for her not to know about this. The wind that gently touches my skin each time i think of her, i know, is her way of saying she's there, fine and happy. It's funny because you can't really tell how people from the "other" part of the world are doing with their lives "up there" especially now that things for them seem to be much easier compared to the kind of life they once had on Earth. But, i know for sure my mom, Jay De Gala, is doing fine with Lolo Tanchong, Lolo Aga and Lola Consing. I love you mom. See you when i see you.


PS
Don't worry much about us Mom. Dad's been doing fine and Achi's preparing for her NMAT on December. Ched's gonna graduate soon and I'm still beautiful. Hahahahaha.