detaching myself from the outside world for quite some time was fun. my life became quiet and peaceful. i even get to spend a lot of time with myself and friends!
one afternoon, as i sat on one of math building's benches, a group of four flocked around me and talked about the issues occurring and re-occurring in our society. they were very much enthusiastic about certain issues especially politics. they really looked "palaban" as they further explained some of their advocacies (mostly against our government). Yuping-UP ang dating. as we all know, UP is the sole center for activism. Well, for a lot of people, activism is BAD, but, honestly? it's not. it's one way of showing our freedom and it's somehow a way of exercising our rights. I know where our conversation would lead to - at the end of the long conversation they would most probably invite me to join their team whose primary goal (i guess) is to voice out the kabataan's inner yearning or should i say "desire" on having a better government. i was cool listening to them 'til i heard the words "Gusto mong sumali?". I was stunned. dad would really kill me if i would join.
Nahiya ako to say "No" because they were really looking at me straight - with their faces saying "sumali ka na, it's not just for you, it's for all of us, for the youth most especially". They gave me more or less 3 minutes to think it over. I was sure that i didn't want to get myself into trouble, but, something strange happened. napatanong ako sa aking sarili, since when did i start thinking more about myself and less about other people? am i gonna live my life just like this? walang ginagawa kung hindi mag-aral at isipin kung anong kakainin ko mamaya o bukas? Acads is still my priority, but, naisip ko, am i gonna be that GC nerd hanggang grumaduate ako at namatay ako? and if ever i died, do i want to be remembered as someone who lived her life just for herself??
The answer? Is obvious.
Kahit papaano, i want to be remembered as someone who did something remarkable for others. Something dangerous yet beneficial for the human race. well, it's not what you think it is. The rally stuff and big or small forms of protests, i assured myself before joining any group, would never be an option for me. i still know my limits kahit papaano. Personally, i'm scared of joining rallies because i might be caught off guard, and hello? dad IS and WILL ALWAYS BE apprehensive to things like these baka makasama pa sakanya. But still! i joined the team. I even had my first convention with them last night. i had fun! real fun. not the fake or peke fun okay? Over a hundred delegates came and the place was really over-crowded. Yung mga delegates kasi not just from NCR kaya ang daming tao.
I met new friends last night who mostly are familiar faces - faces i usually pass by during week days sa school or mga kasabay ko sa ikot. Actually,i was quite hesitant to attend the convention knowing that i was with myself - ALONE in other words. but, seminars, conventions, forums and the like are my thing and it can't be deleted from my system. i suddenly became brave to go alone. i thought i was gonna end up at one corner of the venue talking to myself. but, guess what? i was part of the crowd. The crowd i never expected to be in. i was really proud of myself and even more to those kabataan who came all the way from their provinces. friendship was surely in the air last night! i made a good decision. buti na lang pumunta ako. masaya ang convention kagabi. hindi siya boring just like the other conventions that i had been to. Lalo pang sumaya ang gabi when Gloc9 came and performed. i love Gloc 9! well, who doesn't?
oh well, that's my story.
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