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after she left, i have become a different person- a version of me that i have never thought would come out. i'm not really sure if it's for the best or what. honestly,i have become a little less enthusiastic of my friends. it's as if hanging out with them is a waste of time (i only choose the people i hang out with unlike before) i tend to do stuffs like u know the boring stuffs instead of having fun. i became very unpredictable to the extent that i can no longer finish anything i have started. i spent my afternoons at a cemetery. i jog, i listen to music, i talk to myself, i reflect to the weird feelings and thoughts that i keep on having lately. but, the funny thing is, i no longer get angry at "things". i think i was able to learn how to contain my feelings and let pass the things that aren't really significant. i think i have successfully deleted the sad parts of my life and decided to live life the way God has planned it for me. i go with the flow thinking that maybe there's something out there waiting for me if i just sail with the situation smoothly. i have stopped planning for myself or for my future. i go for whatever idea that comes into my mind. if this is what they call "spontaneity", i don't think it's a good idea because it bothers my family and i can see it through their faces. i don't know if this crazy act of mine would be permanent or what, but i'm hoping that if ever this would be me for life, it would still help me do the things that i MIGHT want to do and achieve the things that i MIGHT want to achieve in the days to come. who knows?


*this happens to be a recent blog.

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Classes again... So tiring.... But i have to study hard.... Sa lahat ng pagod may saya naman kahit papaano... Thank you very much to my friends sa ASSP and sa batch 1908. I love you guys!!!